Anguish

my heart stops
my eyes stream sour 
the thought of loneliness 
stings at the back of my mind
bitter bile rising
emotions brimming
nerves tumbling, throbbing
blasting my head with worries
thumping myself
hurting, hurting

looking for a way out
finding nada
darkness looming
closed doors, barricaded windows
the end in my midst
like death lurking
misty, murky
demise slowly creeping
nowhere to go but deep
gasping, drowning

ready to give up
to succumb to this sickness
pain courses my veins
like venom, like poison
slowly killing me
scared and spiteful
everything suddenly pitch black
can see light no more
numb, fleeting
slight tremor, then silence

no more, no more.